The Longing of the Restless Heart

 

The First Image

Tearful Eyes

The first picture has been preserved for us by Abdullah Bin Masud. He narrates as follows:

“One day I was present before the Prophet (S.A.W) who was sitting on his pulpit. Addressing me, the Prophet (S.A.W) said: ‘Abdullah, come and recite from the Qur’an to me.’”

In amazement and respect I asked: ‘Shall I recite it to you on whom it has been revealed?’

He said: ‘I like to hear it from others.’

So I started to recite Surah Nisa (The Women). When I reached the verse: ‘How will it be then when We bring from each nation a witness, and We bring you (O Muhammad) as a witness against these people?’ (4:41)

There came from him a cry: ‘Stop Abdullah, recite no more!’ I raised my head to look at him. Both of his eyes were overflowing with tears.

Look at this picture with attention. What could be that great responsibility the appreciation of which melted the heart and brought tears to the eyes? It is the obligation to stand witness to the Truth before the slaves of Allah. It is the responsibility of the da’wah (invitation to the religion of God). It is because of the deep sense of accountability. One day Allah will question the extent the duty has been performed. What would be the reply? Look at the love he has for his Lord! Admire his fear of confronting his Master. What a strange and appealing combination of love and fear! Mark his compassion and mercy for mankind. Such was his faith in the Divine Word that only a few verses brought all the love, fear and kindness to his eyes in the form of tears. How can one help not loving such a picture?

Now, have a look at yourself in the light of this picture. You know that as Muslims you have been raised as an Ummah to stand witness to the Truth in front of your nation and the rest of the world. This is the objective of your life. For this cause you have organized yourselves. Day and night you repeat, Shariah (Islamic Order), Deen (the rule of Allah), ‘witness to the Truth’. Let us be honest and speak the truth. How many times have we cried, during the day or night, thinking of the hour when Allah will make us stand before Him to account for as a witness to the people living around us? What will then our position be?

You know it very well that you too are obliged to stand witness to the Truth before the world in the way the Prophet (S.A.W) stood in his days. You will have to stand in front of Allah, as the Prophet (S.A.W) will. You will also be asked if you had stood witness of the Truth in front of your household, school and college mates, your colleagues at the workplace, the inhabitants of your town and country, and who went ways of evil or were led astray. Were you a true or a false witness? Were you mindful or negligent of your duty? Were you thoughtful of all human beings or just worried about your own comforts and your own salvation?

Did such thoughts ever move you to tears? If not, it means this image of the Prophet (S.A.W) has not been affixed in your heart. Your heart is still devoid of that tenderness of love for your Lord and His creatures without which your life cannot attain any beauty and grace. You may deliver speeches, read books, shout slogans, hold grand meetings, and what not; nothing will be fruitful without a deep passion for and dedication to the Cause.

Viewing this picture should move you to tremble. You should shiver, and shed tears whenever you recall that. You will be accountable for every indifference shown to the Lord by your people who neither follow the right path nor obey Him. You might be held responsible for the lapses of others around you.



The Second Image

The Tender, Tormented Heart

Let us take a look at the second picture. It was not drawn by any mortal but by Him Who is “The Artist”; the entire universe speaks of the excellence and perfection of His art. “It may be that thou tormentest thyself (O Muhammad) because they believe not.” (26:3)

The statement is brief but the picture is complete and comprehensive. Only a few words reflect a myriad of colors; there are several of its features that stir the heart. One aspect is the Prophet’s (S.A.W) faith in his own truthfulness, a faith that one has in existence of the sun on a bright sunny morning. Whatever is beyond our sight and perception is quite evident to the Prophet (S.A.W).

His faith is confronted by repeated denials and rejection from the disbelievers. What would be the mental condition of the person who, pointing to the shining sun, declared that it was day time and people refused to accept it? They brand him as a liar, and an impostor. Could you imagine how stifling their attitude to him would be? The people are not satisfied with only refuting his claims; they laugh at him, turn against him, and oppress him. Think of what his heart goes through and how correctly the Artist paints his picture by using the expression ‘tormentest thyself’.

There is another feature far more fascinating. To grieve over rejections is but natural. Every human being suffers them. But there is one thing very hard to visualize. The Artist brings it before our eyes. Despite rejections, accusations and enmity, there are no signs of anger or bad will on the part of the Prophet (S.A.W). He has only one desire, one concern, one passion: to bring this people to the way of Allah, rescue them from the wrath of Allah and the fire of hell. His greatest wish is that they are sent to heaven and rewarded fairly in this world and the hereafter.

It is one of the most attractive combinations of devotion, concern and grief from which emerge the characteristics of the picture of one who torments himself. He is emaciating, losing control over himself and virtually dying of this grief.

He is not aggrieved because people are not paying the attention he seeks. He is not suffering because people are rejecting the invitation to the Truth. He is not dying to win their confidence. The pain and the grief is because people are rushing towards the fire like months falling in it, and are, above all, happy and contented to die this way.

Ah! What boldness they show for the Fire! (2:175)

On the one hand he is in love with his Lord and fellow creatures. He is by nature a compassionate being. “Mercy for the Creation” is his title. On the other hand, his beloved fellow human beings are running away from his beloved Lord and almost killing themselves. Can you imagine the condition of such a heart? The Prophet (S.A.W) is repoted to have said:

“My example is that of a man who made a fire, and when it lighted what was around it, moths and other insects started falling into it. The man tried his best to prevent them from falling in the fire but they disregarded him and rushed into the fire. Now, similarly, I take hold of you by your waists to keep you from falling into the fire, but you strive hard to fall.

Now look at yourself. Do you believe in your message so intensely as to find it difficult to breathe when people refuse to accept it? Do you love humanity so much so that disappointment, anger and hate do not replace the feelings of love, sympathy and concern? Do you feel the same pangs of grief when you see people going astray, as you would feel seeing some dear one burn in fire? After all, among these dear ones are included your mothers and fathers, brothers and sisters, wives and children, relatives, friends, schoolmates and colleagues. The worldly cares, financial concerns, and hardships of those whom we love depress us and render us well-nigh dead. All of us have been through this in some way or another. Does the concern to deliver the message of Allah to the people, the desire to save them from fire and lead them to salvation keep us impatient and agitated? Do we try to hold them back and save them from disaster instead of branding them transgressors when we see people going astray? Believe me, until our lives reflect the image of “thou tormentest thyself’, we will not be able to do or even think of what was successfully performed by the Prophet (S.A.W).

 

By Khurram Murad